Since I was a kid, I always felt there was a ‘higher’ power that was participating in my life. I had a sixth sense about it and when I was introduced to the bible when I was about 4, it made sense to me…. Well, some of it did!
The older I got, the more aware I became that something ‘more’ than human was responsible for spinning the earth, gravity, the beauty of trees, the intelligence in a rose and beating my heart in rhythm! I found the bible had some great pieces but it didn’t answer my questions in a way that I was satisfied with. The story of the bible, the metaphors, the examples, instructions and directions all gave me clarity and in some cases a path to follow, but it wasn’t the book of rules for living that I really wanted.
As someone who is an avid researcher, experimenter and explorer of knowledge, and always have been, I found myself following my nose to a variety of ‘Spiritual’ book shops, where I came across two very small little books: The Impersonal Life and The Way Out…. Neither have a noted author however, the first flick through was enough to draw me in.
Both books speak of the God inside and the Power that exists in each of us, if we are willing to pay attention. Wow! I was blown away and excited at the same time because it was the first time I’d read anything that placed my experience in every way, squarely in my own hands and it also gave me the awareness of something bigger participating in my life with me! I didn’t really understand it all fully at that stage as I was just 21 but it certainly rang true with me and felt right for me!
I told my mum and my sister who were just like me in their pursuit of the spiritual truth and the between the 3 of us, we felt like we were on our way!
This was the beginning of the journey for me which lead to other books, video’s, view points and teachings and some I agreed with, some I didn’t but the best part about the journey, is I had begun to trust myself and what rang true for me as opposed to someone else’s opinion!
Over the course of the years I’ve loved writings of Deepak Chopra (LOVE HIM!!) Marianne Williamson and A Course in Miracles (AWESOME!!!), Nirmala’s Nothing Personal, Louise Hay, Bruce Lipton (BRILLIANT) and hundreds of others which have all contributed to where I am right now.
I’m still experimenting and exploring lots of different books and beliefs and just love being so open to entertain the different information out there. I guess the most important thing I’ve learned as a result of this journey is to TRUST MYSELF above everything else. I guess what I’ve come to believe is that no other human being that is alive can really know the Ultimate truth. No one else has all the answers and no one else can honestly claim to know the answers of the Universe and the meaning of life and death. Not really. We are all just human beings in search of connection but no one can know the Ultimate Truth.
Having said that, there are certainly those who say that they channel Higher entities and I have no idea if they do or they don’t but I do find myself questioning how it is that our knowledge and inspiration collectively continues to expand and develop… Take the Secret and Abraham-Hicks as an example. Also, I find myself questioning the incredible information available through Eastern philosophies and teachings and have to believe that there is a ‘magical’ way that such amazing information reaches the masses continuously. It’s has to get here somehow and maybe, just maybe there are those among us that do channel enlightened messages!! It’s nice to believe that could be true while at the same time, I think it’s important to be as discerning as possible so as not to be sucked in to charlatans, money grabbers or cults because there is also corruption in this world and while it has never crossed my path, I do know others that have fallen victim due to their own vulnerability and innocence.
I have to say, that there are countless times that I’ve shared information from the stage which has been profound (and I only discover the profound-nicity when I listen to the recordings!) which at the time felt like the brilliance wasn’t coming from me! To add to the conundrum, afterwards I have no memory of what I’ve espoused!
It’s a beautiful feeling really. A feeling of absolute lightness, peace, serenity and clarity without question. I feel as though I’ve left myself from an intellectual perspective and all I feel is a pure sensation of love and connectedness. I know that sounds weird considering most people would be terrified if they were to stand in front of 2000 people and find themselves going blank, but it’s a pretty regular occurrence for me!
I must confess that this is one of the secrets to my confidence and relaxation on stage. I deliberately ask to be used by those in higher places and I promise to get out of the way so that whatever message is necessary for that audience can be delivered without any interference from me. It’s a ‘prayer’ that I utter to myself before I take the stage and when I stand in front of the massive rooms of people, I feel incredibly honoured and humbled that I have the ability to let myself go and make room for a magical message!
Am I channeling? Who knows? All I know is that I am always thirsting for growth, I’m always trusting myself and I am always open to new inspiration and I guess, it’s the one thing that continuously drives my business and my life in every way and I feel like I’m the luckiest person alive! I don’t know if this is channeling or not s I wouldn’t know how to ‘really’ tell. All I know is that when I speak from this place of nothingness, I get the greatest results and when I listen to the recordings, I get the greatest learnings! Bring it on whatever it is and my wish for you is that you discover the truth that exists inside of you and you live like the most magnificent expression of all that you are…. REALLY ARE!!
Much love!
